i've never felt so beautiful

...The above is a total and complete lie. I am having a seriously negative day. I'm not sure there is an inch of me that I don't total dislike at the moment. Legs, arms, boobs, face--it's all on my list today. I don't really know what inspired this total "blah" about myself but...wait, oh yes I do...working out and working out and seeing zero results. It's like I'm mentally blaming my body as if it's against me and just wants to stay flubbery and wavy. I'm not saying curvy because I see nothing wrong with curvy. I'm saying on my legs it looks like a road in WV right before they pave and it's all bumpy and uneven. Jiggly jiggly jiggly, that's how I feel.

In an effort to lift my mood, our in house nutritional guy pointed out where I was 2 years ago and said I should just keep trying and my chin up. My initial reaction was to eat a cupcake in his face. I know he's being encouraging, though, so I saved myself the calories of a cupcake indulgence (...and I didn't have any cupcakes). I really am trying to be more positive about everything after a couple of hours of cutting myself down. Today, though, it's just not easy. I can't really explain why other than it's..just..not. I might be suffering from a bit of PMS...or a lot of PMS. I don't really know. I just know I'm not happy and when momma aint happy, nobody happy.

(that made me giggle slightly)

Jersey called me yesterday and we talked for over an hour. That, however, is another story for another day..

BLAH.

That is all.